I'm Late! I'm Late!

I've been thinking about my purpose, my destiny, my ultimate goal on this earth, and if I'm anywhere close to reaching it.  I have looked admiringly at the people who seem to have their lives mapped out. They know what they're doing, and when, and even why they must do it.  These are the folks that are disciplined with their time.  Wasting precious time is something that makes them feel sick to their stomachs.  They are goal-oriented, and think things through.  They seem fearless!  Then I look at myself.  Honestly, I feel so lost sometimes-in terms of what I should be doing.  In fact, some days I get a lot done, even if it isn't the most important stuff, and other days, I feel like I've accomplished little more than just getting out of bed.

I want more than anything in this world, to make a difference for God's kingdom.  I want to leave a legacy that others can be encouraged and blessed by. When it's all said and done, I want to reach my destiny! Yes, I feel like I'm late.  Did I blow it? Am I ever going to get to "that place"? Well, I am finite, and God is infinite.  I could obsess over the "what ifs" and become frazzled, or I can pray, submit to The Father daily, and give myself completely over to His will.  I don't know what tomorrow holds, and I know I'm not perfect, but I am choosing to trust God's will for my life.  He, more than anyone else, knows that I want to be what He wants, but He also knows how ill-equipped I am to accomplish it on my own. So I'm back to inhaling deeply, and exhaling, all while trusting God with absolutely every part of my life. If I am late, God can redeem the time, so either way, I'm good!!